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「itwillnotlastforever,」hesaid。***「youcanescapefromitwheneveryouchoose。everythingdependsonyourself。」
「youdidit!」sobbedwinston。「youreducedmetothisstate。」
「no,winston,youreducedyourselftoit。thisiswhatyouacceptedwhenyousetyourselfupagainsttheparty。itwasallcontainedinthatfirstact。nothinghashappenedthatyoudidnotforesee。」
hepaused,andthenwenton:
「wehavebeatenyou,winston。wehavebrokenyouup。youhaveseenwhatyourbodyislike。yourmindisinthesamestate。idonotthinktherecanbemuchprideleftinyou。youhavebeenkickedandfloggedandinsulted,youhavescreamedwithpain,youhaverolledonthefloorinyourownbloodandvomit。youhavewhimperedformercy,youhavebetrayedeverybodyandeverything。canyouthinkofasingledegradationthathasnothappenedtoyou?」
winstonhadstoppedweeping,thoughthetearswerestilloozingoutofhiseyes。helookedupato』brien。
「ihavenotbetrayedjulia,」hesaid。
o』brienlookeddownathimthoughtfully。「no,」hesaid,「no,thatisperfectlytrue。youhavenotbetrayedjulia。」
thepeculiarreverenceforo』brien,whichnothingseemedabletodestroy,floodedwinston』sheartagain。howintelligent,hethought,howintelligent!neverdido』brienfailtounderstandwhatwassaidtohim。anyoneelseonearthwouldhaveansweredpromptlythathehadbetrayedjulia。forwhatwastherethattheyhadnotscrewedoutofhimunderthetorture?hehadtoldthemeverythingheknewabouther,herhabits,hercharacter,herpastlife;hehadconfessedinthemosttrivialdetaileverythingthathadhappenedattheirmeetings,allthathehadsaidtoherandshetohim,theirblack-marketmeals,theiradulteries,theirvagueplottingsagainsttheparty—everything。andyet,inthesenseinwhichheintendedtheword,hehadnotbetrayedher。hehadnotstoppedlovingher;hisfeelingstowardsherhadremainedthesame。o』brienhadseenwhathemeantwithouttheneedforexplanation。