225.英文正文(225)
「youhavethoughtsometimes,」saido』brien,「thatmyface—thefaceofamemberoftheinnerparty—looksoldandworn。whatdoyouthinkofyourownface?」
heseizedwinston』sshoulderandspunhimroundsothathewasfacinghim。
「lookattheconditionyouarein!」hesaid。「lookatthisfilthygrimealloveryourbody。lookatthedirtbetweenyourtoes。lookatthatdisgustingrunningsoreonyourleg。doyouknowthatyoustinklikeagoat?probablyyouhaveceasedtonoticeit。lookatyouremaciation。doyousee?icanmakemythumbandforefingermeetroundyourbicep。icouldsnapyournecklikeacarrot。doyouknowthatyouhavelosttwenty-fivekilogramssinceyouhavebeeninourhands?evenyourhairiscomingoutinhandfuls。look!」hepluckedatwinston』sheadandbroughtawayatuftofhair。「openyourmouth。nine,ten,eleventeethleft。howmanyhadyouwhenyoucametous?andthefewyouhaveleftaredroppingoutofyourhead。lookhere!」
heseizedoneofwinston』sremainingfrontteethbetweenhispowerfulthumbandforefinger。atwingeofpainshotthroughwinston』sjaw。o』brienhadwrenchedtheloosetoothoutbytheroots。hetosseditacrossthecell。
「youarerottingaway,」hesaid;「youarefallingtopieces。whatareyou?abagoffilth。nowturnaroundandlookintothatmirroragain。doyouseethatthingfacingyou?thatisthelastman。ifyouarehuman,thatishumanity。nowputyourclothesonagain。」
winstonbegantodresshimselfwithslowstiffmovements。untilnowhehadnotseemedtonoticehowthinandweakhewas。onlyonethoughtstirredinhismind:thathemusthavebeeninthisplacelongerthanhehadimagined。thensuddenlyashefixedthemiserableragsroundhimselfafeelingofpityforhisruinedbodyovercamehim。beforeheknewwhathewasdoinghehadcollapsedontoasmallstoolthatstoodbesidethebedandburstintotears。hewasawareofhisugliness,hisgracelessness,abundleofbonesinfilthyunderclothessittingweepingintheharshwhitelight:buthecouldnotstophimself。o』brienlaidahandonhisshoulder,almostkindly。