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underthetablewinston』sfeetmadeconvulsivemovements。hehadnotstirredfromhisseat，butinhismindhewasrunning，swiftlyrunning，hewaswiththecrowdsoutside，cheeringhimselfdeaf。helookedupagainattheportraitofbigbrother。thecolossusthatbestrodetheworld！therockagainstwhichthehordesofasiadashedthemselvesinvain！hethoughthowtenminutesago—yes，onlytenminutes—therehadstillbeenequivocationinhisheartashewonderedwhetherthenewsfromthefrontwouldbeofvictoryordefeat。ah，itwasmorethanaeurasianarmythathadperished！muchhadchangedinhimsincethatfirstdayintheministryoflove，butthefinal，indispensable，healingchangehadneverhappened，untilthismoment。

thevoicefromthetelescreenwasstillpouringforthitstaleofprisonersandbootyandslaughter，buttheshoutingoutsidehaddieddownalittle。thewaiterswereturningbacktotheirwork。oneofthemapproachedwiththeginbottle。winston，sittinginablissfuldream，paidnoattentionashisglasswasfilledup。hewasnotrunningorcheeringanylonger。hewasbackintheministryoflove，witheverythingforgiven，hissoulwhiteassnow。hewasinthepublicdock，confessingeverything，implicatingeverybody。hewaswalkingdownthewhite-tiledcorridor，withthefeelingofwalkinginsunlight，andanarmedguardathisback。thelonghoped-forbulletwasenteringhisbrain。

hegazedupattheenormousface。fortyyearsithadtakenhimtolearnwhatkindofsmilewashiddenbeneaththedarkmoustache。ocruel，needlessmisunderstanding！ostubborn，self-willedexilefromthelovingbreast！twogin-scentedtearstrickleddownthesidesofhisnose。butitwasallright，everythingwasallright，thestrugglewasfinished。hehadwonthevictoryoverhimself。helovedbigbrother。