230.英文正文（230）

thenalmostwithoutapausehewrotebeneathit：

butthentherecameasortofcheck。***hismind，asthoughshyingawayfromsomething，seemedunabletoconcentrate。heknewthatheknewwhatcamenext，butforthemomenthecouldnotrecallit。whenhedidrecallit，itwasonlybyconsciouslyreasoningoutwhatitmustbe：itdidnotcomeofitsownaccord。hewrote：

heacceptedeverything。thepastwasalterable。thepastneverhadbeenaltered。oceaniawasatwarwitheastasia。oceaniahadalwaysbeenatwarwitheastasia。jones，aaronson，andrutherfordwereguiltyofthecrimestheywerechargedwith。hehadneverseenthephotographthatdisprovedtheirguilt。ithadneverexisted，hehadinventedit。herememberedrememberingcontrarythings，butthosewerefalsememories，productsofself-deception。howeasyitallwas！onlysurrender，andeverythingelsefollowed。itwaslikeswimmingagainstacurrentthatsweptyoubackwardshoweverhardyoustruggled，andthensuddenlydecidingtoturnroundandgowiththecurrentinsteadofopposingit。nothinghadchangedexceptyourownattitude：thepredestinedthinghappenedinanycase。hehardlyknewwhyhehadeverrebelled。everythingwaseasy，except！

anythingcouldbetrue。theso-calledlawsofnaturewerenonsense。thelawofgravitywasnonsense。「ifiwished，」o』brienhadsaid，「icouldfloatoffthisfloorlikeasoapbubble。」winstonworkeditout。「ifhethinkshefloatsoffthefloor，andifisimultaneouslythinkiseehimdoit，thenthethinghappens。」suddenly，likealumpofsubmergedwreckagebreakingthesurfaceofwater，thethoughtburstintohismind：「itdoesn』treallyhappen。weimagineit。itishallucination。」hepushedthethoughtunderinstantly。thefallacywasobvious。itpresupposedthatsomewhereorother，outsideoneself，therewasa「real」worldwhere「real」thingshappened。buthowcouldtherebesuchaworld？whatknowledgehaveweofanything，savethroughourownminds？allhappeningsareinthemind。whateverhappensinallminds，trulyhappens。